7th August; Day Four

4am, you called me this morning.
I actually purposely didn't put in silent, cause I'm waiting for you to look for me.
Finally you do, I'm very happy when received your call.
Yet, you went club again, as aspect. Hmmm..
I heard your voice like so weird. I asked is there anything. You insist say no.
Maybe i'm thinking too much. You called to say you're safely home.
Why do you do so? Actually you don't need to. We're just friend.
You don't need to report to me. I'm happy you doing so, but you make me think that we actually still got another chance. Which will never ever happened again, I know it well.
In the end, you say goodnight and give me a goodnight kiss. I cried.
I miss you, I can't deny. I still love you. <3

This morning I woke up. Keep waiting for your message.
Yet, you didn't text me. I'm afraid.. I'm afraid that you forget about me.
I'm no longer important to you. I'm afraid to lost you.. I'm afraid. </3

There after you text me finally.. We chat very few messages, then I stop to reply.
I know, if I continue to reply to you.. I will not let you go.
I should make a clear cut on us. I shouldn't keep looking forwards a text from you.
I know I can do it! I want to get you over.

Many told me that you're not worth to be loved.
You hurt me too much, too many times. You're a bastard.
I actually lost of trust on you. I'm disappointed with you..
I wish to hold you again in my life, but I'm afraid to be hurt again..
I'm afraid, cause its very ache.. I've no more energy to face again all the bullshit and arguments.
I'm tired.. Will you change for me? Become the one I knew in the very beginning.
Let's us start all over again. Only love me, I'm the only one for you?
Loves you. <3