6th August; Day Three

I'm being hurt again.
I miss you. Can you hear me?
I don't understand why our relationship will be ended up like this.
I'm sorry.. I think I'm not good enough for you.

Last night is the first friday night, I backed to kl without you.
As the moon rises, I started feel lonely and misses you.
Every Friday night you'll be with me no matter shine or rainy.
I took a nap at 6pm, woke up at 7pm.
Guess what? Once i woke up, my first thought is you, my lovely dear cpk.
I usually did. You're the only one first appears on my mind before sleep and after woke up.
I felt heartache. Cause I cannot call you.. I cannot text you. I cannot tell you how much i miss you.
Because, we are friend now.
I felt very very heartache and breathless when think of our situation now.
I struggle, I felt like give you a call, ask you for a date but.. No point.
We're friend now, which you won't turn and have a look at me.
And even i asked, you won't come to see me even a second.

Nearly 4.30am, we text. I kept find a reason for myself to persuade myself..
You're unable to sleep cause you're missing me too.
But actually I know you isn't..
I struggle to call you. But what to say to you? Nothing.
I definitely will beg you to come back to me again, I will cried a lot and a lot when heard your voice.
I know the result too. Cause you already decided - f.r.i.e.n.d

Afternoon i text you for a meet up, you refused.
I know what are you thinking about.. It's okay. You're doing right.
I cried sadly. It's very pain.. </3

I hate that you changed.
I hate that you left.
I hate how much you made me smile.
I hate how I miss you.
I hate how it hurts.
I hate that I lost you.
I hate that I found out who you really are.
But most of all, I hate how I still love you.
Lastly, hate that I Love You so much Chow Pak Khin.
I love you still... <3